How could we not? Sadly, though, the actor confirmed what we knew deep down all along.In an interview withEntertainment Tonight "Every time I closed my eyes when I was trying to sleep, I began to have nightmares, horrible memories, things that I didn't want to remember.""It's still happening to me,” Kelly said.The Intercept’s Co-written by director and activist Paola Mendoza and author and performer Abby Sher,Sanctuary At the end of the day, I always go through my message requests, and some fan wrote when I had more of a normal, glam look, like, “You look so pretty, but why do you always make yourself so ugly? Is it for shock value? I’m a fan, just asking and not trying to be rude!” So I addressed it and… you know, I’ve never felt pretty. Like, I’m starting, at this adult age, to get in touch with my feminine side. I’ve never felt feminine, though. I’ve never liked having boobs. I’ve never felt flirtatious. I’ve always been way more comfortable doing radical looks or being androgynous. I’ve always liked being more unique and special than pretty.TV